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Saturday, May 16, 2009, 10:40 PM
shit! i dunno what emotions shd i be on today post...too much emotions
S - Sad
U - Understanding
N - No Mood
D - Disturbed
A - Angry
Y - Yawnz
Sad....cuz paragon letter come le...Zzz...
bomb...really time bomb
pay gone, FUCK...sry for the word =x
but its too much for me alone
pay is gone..
shd known..i wont go for the job in the first place
damm it...really damm fuck up *sry again*
i not only lost my pay...i lost something important too
now im really starting to think, what the hell was i thinking back then
aint it very obvious what happen to tl, and u this idiot just went for it?
fuck it man...fuck it..
Understanding...nothing much to type over here...
just hope im understanding enough to get whats going on ard me
and learn to take things easy...or maybe...learn to let go...
its not easy for me but definitely not easy for the other party too
maybe my own mao bing is coming back again..
let it go, just let it go, its telling me <----Devil
keep going, hang on, dun give up <----Angel
I'm Stuck!
No Mood...knowing no pay...cant do shit
Zzz...going to watch bball competition ltr...
argh! shit man....really shitted!
Disturbed...cant slp...things piling in my head
im back to weeks ago...Zzz...tired and cant slp
maybe this aint the best time for me to talk abt anything else
its better to concentrate what i have to pay first...
argh...cant believe its this huge amount...
cant slp cant slp!!! ARGH!
Angry...with myself....for everything
my guts, myself, everything abt me...
maybe i shd just give up on myself too
guess im meant to be a failure...
Yawnz...tired but cant slp...haiz
Thats was sunday post ba...now is sat de...
went for training as usual....this time came back with a better injury
thx to the philippino who landed on my knee after pushing me down on to the ground
now im pratically handicapped...walking with 1 leg like a handicapped...fuck it
forget...i endure it...just lucky the bone aint injured...
ankle is swollen...but fuck it too...ill just carry on with what im doing
guess thats the way i can let of my steam ard me...by gyming and exercise...
like the old times...sweating with equipments...jogging to let of steam
been long since i last did all these sports...gotta start them soon again
cuz i believe in someday sooner or later...things gonna pour down again
just preparing for the worst...i cant be positive anymore...
im backing down to where i used to be...i hate it...but is there even a choice?
bbq was all right...but going home was a problem
only frederick wanna eat, went to geylang to eat dou jiang you tiao..
waste of my time...everyone is tired..and im not even the driver
i have to look out the road for him..damm it..
becoming im the driver without steering wheel...
almost got into an accident...but glad it didnt...
but does it makes a difference to what i am now?
went home slept for few hours and pop up agian...
sry for this stupid shit post...just ignore it...
it will be over written someday...anyway its only 199th post...
still got a long way to go...oh yeah...u didnt know abt it yet..=)
aleast thats the last thing that make me smile and feel
like im alive on earth..
