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just did a quiz on fb that determines what Jay Chou song am i?
guess what i got? results - tui hou
explanation - You're wise, caring and understanding. You're like a parent to everyone around u!! You're very nice to people u know. Your love will be very nice to u too!! You're good at being happy too haha. JiaYous!!
Lol true? guess its for you guys to tell me =)
well...another day of silence on the phone, rot at home
but good thing is, i manage to catch "Where The Heart Is" drama ending =D
nice and touching show, ending was also a happy one
if it only apply to real life for me, will be good...but it seems the other way round
had bowl noodles for breakfast, always scold ppl for eating unhealthy food
but i myself got caught up in it...damm you jj!
went to gym, then straight for bball, lost my cool...sry guys
too much things bottle up recently...but guess im fine =)
still able to handle it well, well aleast im trying...
went home wash up and prepared to meet frederick and leonard for "dinner" at 11.15pm
had macdonalds cuz leonard dun want chup chai peng...yawnz...
after that went to the old chill out place, The Playground
A place where we discovered last year, where we share all the news of happiness or sadness
where we all sit down to chat and discuss everything under the sun (i prefer moon cuz its a night) then all headed home...going to rp for lunch ltr...wonder if ur free to meet up? lets try my luck =)

well well....been telling ppl im a flirt, but none seems to agreed to it except for you =)
fact is, im a FLIRT. been loving one after another, fail one, look for another one =D
thats what i have always been doing, aint it? failure after failure i got...
guess im never meant to be loved, or to love anyone becuz i always screw things up
my impatience, my mouth, my attitude and my feelings just screw things up
aint true? but its the fact =) face it! im just sucky at a r/s
if i cant love myself more than other, dun ever fall in love...tell yourself that!
Kew Jun Jie
Nights~

Labels: Just Take Hours To Destroy It, Take Years To Build A Nicole Highway Bridge

learn lots of new things these days...wahaha...
"the best experience you can get, is when u can't get something u wanted"
"how badly u want to climb over the wall, shows how badly u want the item behind the wall"
"people always find excuses to cover up their mistake but reality always revels the mask"
3 of the new stuffs i learn, very true though XD
guess the 2nd one im climbing a mountain...hehe...but again, am i pushing too much?
in a dilemma now...move down? move up? move down? move up?...
ytd was the first day of the army man off, meet up for lunch, wanted to pmc
but yeah...short of 1 player...so skip that idea...
went home, watch anime and some manga online till 6plus
went out for a jog, came home to change shoe b4 the starting of the next sport
my fav, Bball!
short of players though...retards...shd know i stay at home slp better, ask them cancel off
but anyway, the game was still on...damm dead, thats all i can say...
end the night by rewarding myself to my own cooking skills XD
cooked honey baked ham, eggs with cheese fillings and make them into a sandwich
had them while watching manga online and talking to miss bee
had red wine as company...didnt go that well afterall
finish wash up, and enter my dreamland

woke up today for sun tanning session...ass man...stupid dark clouds
didnt manage to get the sun to shine on us, so swim a few laps b4 going home to get change
head down to city hall with yj and alvin as planned and shop btw marina square and suntec
yj brought us to a place located at suntec basement where got freeflow of icecream and drinks
if u buy a set meal...portion kinda filling, drinks okay, ice cream normal lor
after that...head to millenium walk to find yj what chocolate factory
damm...1 tiny bar of chocolate bar cost abt 10bucks? o.O
woot! but kinda stylish la...afterall, see nia nv buy
went to this car model shop...all the models are inside damm nice and cool
but 1 damm expensive
1/18 scale of a lamborgini cost $980
cost a bomb man! lol just see for fun also XD
tot of getting 1 for frederick bday...hmm...
after that shop ard at marina square and yj tried on a few shirts in zara
took him 15mins to decide which shirt to buy
a yellow casual tee that cost $40
or a purple semi formal shirt that cost $75
flip coins (my fav ^_^), odd or even
in the end, he bought the purple one -.-
after that, head back to tamp, alvin itching for pmc
went on with the idea, lost 3bucks, manage to recover the 16bucks thx to yj
afterthat, went to kfc for dinner...eugene was the big winner, so he fork out his winnings
and we top up the extra for a family feast...afterall, the winnings is from our mahjong $$
so eugene fork it out =) had a full meal b4 heading home...another boring night again
guess im starting to miss night life now XD

jialat...the urge to smoke is getting heavier and heavier
cannot cannot! maybe 1 stick will do the trick =x
just wanna try letting the smoke come out from my nose =P
seems difficult from shisha...dunno somehow whenever im free
ill just try the nose tatic, guess it aint that easy afterall =x
must be the effect from work =P excuses!
no stick no stick! sry for being contridicting
maybe someday go shisha...but then again
my clique will nv wanna go, so bo bian...tahan luh
let things get into my head and get busy, so i can forget
else i might just get a packet and try out my nose trick =P
nitez~
as usual, woke up at ard 9.30am...brush teeth with the half-awaken look
same thing happen again...constant cough..and yup...as expected
yellow acid with red stain...cant be bothered...not the first time anyway
*wide grins*
change up, and went down for bball
not alot of team turn up...but last week got abt 5 teams?
guess its 1 week up, 1 week down
players are countable...so yeah
very fast was our turn...and we won all the way...
did some plays or rather "practise" for the upcoming competition
hope the competition do comes...else also playing bball for nth all the way
reach home ard 12plus, bath change out and slept
been so long since i slept so well, but got waken up by few phone calls for K box
judging from my throat, guess ill skip it...head back to bed, woke up at 7.30
watch some tv drama, meet up with yj and frederick for "dinner" at 10pm
slack at while b4 returning home...another day with NOTHING =D

7 oct Zzz...still got 6 more mths to go
guess i have a job in mind, just that not sure whether shd i go into it yet,
lets just hope i dun have to be so despo till i hit the job >_<
so yeah, anyone got any lobangs, do let me know =)
aint really picky abt jobs as long as the pay is good and ppl is nice will do
last night dinner was suppose to be at tm
but got change to bedok 85 cuz only yj was the only one free to acc me
after that went to eugene hse for mahjong...Zzz..lost $6
luck wasnt really by my side afterall
ps to drag yj down losing $6 also =x
guess he was the only one for me when im really rotting at home
mahjong all the way till ard 4am then went to have macdonald breakfast
& sat and chat till abt 5am b4 i head off to bed
upon hitting the bed, cant slp >.< toss and turn till abt 7am?
then woke up at 9.30am but i force myself back to slp
yj call at 10.30am, SUNTANNING TIME
went for the afternoon sun even though im falling sick =D
woke up to brush teeth, due to the constant cough, vomited some bale
(fyi. bale is the acid in our stomach that burns our breakfast, i think its spell like this =x)
first notice, saw some familiar cubes stuffs, ignore it
continue brushing, comes the urge again, and again...i vomited =)
double confirm...reddish stain...guess u guys know what it is...
*grins*
prepare my stuffs and head out.
finish tanning at abt 1 and headed home
prepared my stuffs cuz going out to celebrate bday gal at dempsely road
but b4 that, have some different plans
met up the cliques at abt 2.30pm
went to katong to lan game till abt 6pm
then head down to dempsely road located at orchard
had pizza for the day of my meal but only ate 4/8 of it
had a bad sore throat i guess...red stain shd come from there too
but im fine =D still going on strong...block nose, constant cough and flams shd be normal
cake cutting session, took some photos and cabbed home
over dinner, the army man were happily discussing
as most of the army man got off next week, yh, yj and mak
they said heading down to rp for lunch, to visit yh gf, today bday gal, sharlene

knowing im enlisted on October
guess the only thing to do now is
look for a JOB
cant be idling anymore
been slacking enough i guess
oh yeah...talk lots to the gang over dinner too
had lots of advice and lots of different stuffs
didnt know it still so happening ard me =)
thx guys! owe u guys lots!
cant slp thrugh out the night.
got up at 5.30am to prepare breakfast for you
tot i could go over it, but still u knew
hope u enjoy it
finish preparing, i did some laundry
didnt know took so much of my energy too
sweat after finish the laundry
went to bath and prepare to head out
got on yj lorry at 7 and he drop me off at tiong bahru plaza
reach bl at abt 7.50
meet steph ard 8.10 & pass her the breakfast
reach home ard 9.10
hit the bed, but cant slp
damm...guess i just got the death sentence!
October intake for ARMY!
maboh liao...what am i gonna do for the next 6mths?
cant find a job...ass man
i would rather enter early, come out early
now have to headache what to do, and think abt daily stuffs
shitty man..
bad things to come together, good stuffs also come together
pls pls pls, good stuffs, come faster
cant take it anymore >.<
shd know i fail NAPHA
so can enter early...dun have to trouble so much
jialat jialat...argh! so frustrating
what can i do now??
directions, anyone? thx alot =)

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Zzz...got woke up by this lady, who is banging heavily on my door.
was shouting something while im in my slp, cant figure out what it was?
took me abt 15secs to register it in my switch off brain
"POSTMAN! *Bang Bang Bang!* POST MAN!"
went out to check it, Zzz..a frighten lady
guess i do look damm fierce when i just woke up from bed =x
smilingly, she said through her teeth looking for cuzzie...Zzz..
*None of my business*
drop back to bed, and cant slp >_<
been helping out with my dad early in the morning
to fixed his taxi engine. drop back in bed at ard 9plus and been slipping in and out of my sleep
YAWNZ! tired tired, breakfast was ham, sausage and eggs prepared by cuzzie
2 bandage fingers, 1 from taxi enginer hook, 1 from hw

been having cold wars these past few days
don't like it, hate it, dislike it!
guess i have neglect ya when sch reopens, this is a return ba
no pushing of blame, but rather i deserve it
guess by now, i know what it means to be unconcern >.<
since i cant seems to get to sit down and have a chat
guess ill express myself here in the blog again
the most useless and insincere way
running out of wits how to make it up to u
Sorry, Silly Monkey

If u and me is running a marathon,
i hope there would only be u and me
no 3rd party or any other competitors
just u and me
you will be 1st, and ill be 2nd
if there is competitors, i wont let them overtake me
ill always be 2nd, just behind u
no longer wanting to overtake u
just wanna stay behind u
if there is a day, that i overtake u
guess it would be the day that u let me pass u
thats when i hit my final destination, the CROSSLINE
guess ill be the champion. but ill LOSE more than i WIN
so i never wanna overtake u as 1st anymore
i always tot of leading u on, guess we both need each other
to lead each other on. afterall r/s is a race
hand in hand, heart to heart
if u were to ask me, where is the final destination that u gonna finish
i would reply
"the line which divide the sky and sea, that would be the final destination"

i figured out, guess i must say this b4 its too late
I'm Sorry Monkey, for being so ignorance to ur feelings since last week
guess im to caught up with my stuffs
thats becuz i want a good piece, a piece of gift for you
i wanted to tell u, but i want it to be more of a surprise
little did i expected things to turn so sour
whatever i said now seems to be nth
i know u had given me 2weeks of ur time for nth
and i gave u nth back in the end
feel shitty now though
if only i work harder abit, just abit more
maybe things wont be so bad as it is now
i really hate this cold war
i want to do something, but i dunno what can i do
lets hope things doesnt change for the next 2weeks
becuz, your still important to me
if you cant feel it =)

Labels: The Other 1 Should Be Chasing, When 1 Is Running

dont blow it jj, chill chill
everything is going to be okay!

Labels: Let's Hope So

hehe...recently got myself a new homework =D
erm...a homework i gave myself ba...well rather its an effort work
gotta do kinda lots of cut and paste stuffs...hmm hope it works
but then on the other hand leh...work till i something lose concentration on other stuffs
sianz diao luh...wonder how ppl can multi-task. they say can train, but how to sia?
nv had i succeed in multi tasking...basically, i lose concentration easily..
nvm nvm...just hope it can last 3 weeks...3 weeks is all i need =D
lets hope the homework im doing can help me clear lots of my question >_<
hmm...day pass by day, waking up with the same routine, so strange when it comes to no work
and worst, my pay havent come yet. wth sia...BLS already been 1 mth liao lor.
its only $200+ nia still have to drag so long, sianz diao sia...
i need of the money ar!! wonder how much my bank acc left =x
siao liao siao liao...anyway sat, sharlene bday, ask us go out...hmm wonder if ill be going?
sianz sianz sianz! up down up down, just like a see-saw both u and me are sitting on each side
always up and down on the wrong day? =P lets hope we can hit equilibream one day
and we will be able to see all stuffs...
order 2 pizza today...finish 5/6 of a pizza and 1/6 cuzzie had it
and now left 1 more Zzz...hope ltr frederick and alvin can finish it up for me..

yeap! frederick and alvin finish it in a ratio of 4:2...done...no wastage =D
sat down chit chat for awhile b4 heading home...guess tml wake up early
going to sch have lunch again. then head home with my homework
and at night gym again...guess this routine will be going on for quite some time
till the day i got a new job.
monkey just suggest a permanent job, but she forgot im now waiting for army
as usual, a forgetful monkey. keke
true though, comes to night, if i didnt know monkey
guess ill be idling my life away in the middle of the night
nth to do, just stoning all the way...boring life!
guess it does makes a different if someone really exist in ur life
but now, i guess i just wasted the chance...
im taking stuffs too easy i guess

i'm holding a kite now, its floating in mid air
too much string, it will drop
too little string, it will become stagnant
i'm searching for the wind, it came once, twice
but i didnt notice it...guess i wasnt attentive enough
wont dare to ask for the third one
let's let nature take its course
but im not satisfy, i want another wind blown!
just if only i have the courage
the ability to conquer the wind
everything will be a breeze
but being breeze means ill take things easy
guess once again, im stuck, stuck again with my own stupidity
wind, would u come back again someday?
im waiting...

Labels: hoping for autumn to come soon

boring day at home? guess i have rest enough =)
its time to get my own cranky bones to work again
woke up at 8.02am to send monkey a sms to wake her up ^_^
shd known i called XD
woke up at 9.20am and waited for leo at the door to go down for bball
in the end, he woke up late and went off himself -.- so i gotta travel down alone
bball today was fine i guess, plenty of mistakes till the end thats all
after that went for "breakfast" at 1.30 with my usual clique...had bubble tea =P
HONEY PEACH JASMINE TEA (not that great)
hehe..now come to think of it, play so hard, train so hard
but intake of sugar level so quite high, no wonder i can nv slim down =P
afterall, there is this saying in bodybuilding : 30% training, 70% discipline
guess mine is different 70% training, 30% discipline
hehe...anyway, tml gonna hit the gym again b4 i cant use the sch facility anymore
I PAID FOR IT OKAY! NOT GIAN PENG HOR!
maybe visiting the sch for lunch also =x then after that is collect the voucher
from my ex-college cuz im opening a chalet on the 9 & 10 of May.
Interested parties, pls do contact me =)
send out invitations le...so yeah...do let me know if u wanna come =)
then today was nth much le luh...stay at home all the way le >_<
BORING!

Tml monkey starting sch le, guess shes gonna ciaos halfway
afterall, she meant what she says =P
SOMEMORE IS CIAOS! who dont do that? im a poly student b4 also okay?
yeah dunno where she will ciaos too =x
just hope she calls me >.<
gotta wake up at 6am for her, so gotta wake up and give her a morning call
so yeah, monkey! dun be sad =) enjoy school! gotta be real fun
just hope u dont find an eye candy inside ur class thats all =x
nitez~
hmm...as usual, woke up, went lan gaming, then had family dinner...
guess im tired, slept after my uncle left...woot saw my thailand nephew...
another kiddo that like guns...hehe dunno whats interested them in holding a gun?
damm singaporean wanna escape army, these kiddos wanna go army at their age
starting shooting life rounds...funny kiddos
afterthat, as usual, went for the nightlife - coffeeshop ard the neighbour
had a teh-o ice limau, and 2 kosong...
after that jiu reach home and talk with monkey =)

bridge wasnt broken,
it was just wear and tear thrugh the construction
just hope some repairing will do the job
afterall, it still needs time to complete the unfinish job
guess this time have to slow down the works and take everystep carefully
every planning needs to be double check with no mistake
cant be so careless anymore
knowing the bridge cant take anymore dmg due to the cracks,
guess ill have to spend more time to repair it and protect it.
giving my 100% would be the best way to show my effort
Hang on tough, and we shall see the bridge that used to ferry lots of goods ard
but this time, these goods will only be Love, Care, Happiness & Responsibility

Labels: Let's Take It To Where We Left Unfinish And Finish Whats Left =)

Sleep Time: 7.30am
Woke Time:11.48am
4hours 18mins of slp....guess this is what happen when things are going on, on my mind
right now im like the nicole highway boss, get my workers to build a bridge,
and giving the wrong orders or becuz of my stupidity, i just ruined everything,
bridge collapse, trust died, confidence on me stood low, words really can be KILLERS
things just happen within split seconds, unable to react to it.

Guess now what? shd i be happy or not?
from what ur words are, its seems that u wanna scare me off
not sure if im acting tough and cool, or just wanting everrthing to be like a tv drama?
now im really shaken, first time in my life, so afraid of losing something
to think i can be so tough with u, saying words which i just thought i could type
afterall it sure take lots more courage to present these words to u
are u really going to scare me off? what are u going to do?
millions of it popping up, the moment i closed my eyes, i open within mins
couldnt get to slp, guess i know whats going on, i just cant say ignore, and totally ignoring it
im feeling so empty now...guess thats what u wanna leave me with, so ill leave silently
just like how u want me too...do u really want me to leave? after 7weeks of getting along?
but i guess to u, the 7weeks long bridge was destroy within the split seconds.
now im having a headache...i have ruined everything i build, now i totally regret it...
cant believe this, when good things happen, they happen once and for all, when its bad,
it just come topple one after another...guess now is the bad period. so i expected, things
are gonna turn sour sooner or later, gotta be mentally prepared for it.
till now, im not ready to give up, are u? are u gonna do what i said earlier on?
scare me off with ur drinking? smoking? cold shoulder? scolding? threatening?
how i wish things wont change now...now im starting to regret to ask u to change
becuz im just like u, still unable to adapt to the new changes that took place,
most impt, any wrong step could result in losing u again...just like now...
afterall, what i hope from u is that u wont shun away from me, though u have given up on me,
i still wanna try...and the funny thing is, i dont even know where to start.
u said u wanted things to clear, so u can have a clear goal, but im not sure where u r in the mist too...u said u wanted to adapt to new style of life when sch reopens, i hope the sch workload will take ur mind off some stuffs. IDEPENDENCE, this word really kills you and me...now i know, how hard, alot of you out there have been trying to get closed to me, cuz i used to be like that, secured in my own world, not even my family members can get near to me, till everyone single one of them who didnt give up on me shows me what they are, and this is where i am today. so am i able to be able to break this walls of urs, and rebuild my bridge once again? definitely, ill be building it all alone, but it doesnt matter, becuz i need time to build it, u need time for the mist to clear too...just hope that i wont get any cold shoulder from u that would be the greatest reward to me...afterall, its me who did part of the duty to bring u back to square one again, where u are, back at one...

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as usual, slept at ard 6am ytd? was it 6 or 7 i forgot =x i think its 7 =x
and woke up ard 1.50pm? automatic timing to wake up now le T_T
woke up without any breakfast and got so bored, so i made myself bowl noodle ard 3pm
and online till abt 3.30pm then did what i usually do when im bored....SLEEP!
lol guess im becoming more and more like what monkey call me =P PIG
got waken up by calls from frederick and leonard who ask me to go interchange to eat dinner at 7.30pm, but b4 heading to the interchange, i made a trip to sch to collect my matric card.
just nice when we r on business concourse, saw frederick and he collected my matric card for me =x afterthat heading to the interchange for dinner, didnt expect to be so many ppl cuz leonard only told me its acc him go interchange change his hp into E73, then when i board the bus with me and frederick, then i notice he already got his phone and charge up le -.-
then actually go interchange is just have dinner but with unexpected guest like, mk, yj, eugene and garry =D lol the policeman! hehe...really cant believe he look so funny when he is BOTAK! lol
everyone say he look like MING YI FA SHI sia! lol even passerby see liao cant help but laugh...
& im sure its damm freaking funny! then we headed to carls junior for dinner at ard 9.30 cuz was having headache of what to have for dinner...when the counter saw garry, like kinda shock sia....lol monk comes for carls junior? then stupid leonard, tell him no more beef cuz i heard from the counter when he tell the customer infront of me, and he argued back, WHERE GOT NO BEEF? CARLS JUNIOR LEH! ALL THE BURGER MOSTLY BEEF DE, i replied got chicken and fish ma...then in the end, order his DOUBLE WESTERN CHEESEBURGER, the counter say, SORRY, NO BEEF! kns...make me bo paiseh nia...in the end, he had bacon swiss while i have my usual fav, carls fish....and idiotic sia...ask for double patty of fish....they charge me abt $4 for 1 freaking fish patty, the meal of carls fish is abt $8.70, then upsize is $1 so total is only abt $9.70, they charge me $14.30 for the meal itself without leonard burger, add on leo burger is $24.20, all kena show when they saw my meal, so EXPENSIVE ar? think i must have been rip off the fish part...so RMB! nv order double patty fish! LESSON #1 learn from carls junior! lol after that we just head back to the park pineapple playground (oohhhh, who live in the pineapple under the sea? SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!) lol...yeah sat there for abt 2hours, cuz the policeman was happily sharing his 10days inside training...idiotic sia...now they mention it, ARMY IS SO CRUEL! got a shocked liao...guess must really toughen up my mentality b4 entering, else i might go crazy anytime...might even hang myself up =x after that we all headed home and that concludes my day =D

hehe...msg with monkey alot today =) hehe happy happy
dunno what to say le...but guess everything is sailing again
damm been repeating myself everyday, but cant be help, im BO LIAO what?!
just like monkey thinks so too =x im BO LIAO!
but guess maybe i shd pull back abit, else monkey might run off, afraid of piggy liao...lol
and ar, monkey every night go slp without food, no good no good...
have to think of a solution liao...hmmm...but my this empty brain cant crack anything nice
ARGH!! SOUP?! shit! my mum ask me drink soup and i havent =x better get myself a bowl too
monkey drinking soup now =P hehe...careful its hot =) dun scale ur tongue =P
today just stayed at home then at night went out for bball thats all =P
looking for a part time job now though, want to earn lots and lots of $$ muhaha
been chatting with monkey from 12 to now? think she kinda pissed off cuz of the harrassment calls
dunno which idiot go pass ard her number, cant be by luck so zhun tio her hp one luh
dunno what i can do to help her >.< so vexing
hehe i just made monkey laugh =D feels good to keep her happy =)
only by keeping her happy, i felt i have done my duty
even if in the end, things don't turn out what i expect to be, i still wont have any regrets
becuz i know that once i did what im suppose to do, ill have no regrets of not doing anything
hehe...happy happy, things are getting back on tracks, puzzle are getting solved(just that not completed, but still in process)
tml monkey having a family outing, so plan cancelled, kinda disappointed, but its all right =D
afterall, i havent really mentally prepare for it and things just got picked up
lets not rush and scared monkey off, wait awhile more ba =)
get to know each other more, understand each other needs and really consider if things
are really meant to be anot =)
dun want any mistake to surface after things patched, but im sure there isnt any mistake
at the moment. just looking forward till the day comes, do hope monkey drop me some hint
when the timing is right, afterall, im a woodblock.
so tml gotta stay at home, be good boy =D maybe slp more? look for some part time jobs online, but this time, jobs will only be satisfy if i get enough rest and enough time to spend with my monkey and my clique. Nth matters more to me now except for my family, monkey, clique and bball. Oh yeah, there is a upcoming bball competition and 1 of the cc members already ask us to consider, guess we might go for it but maybe not due to shortage of players. but good thing is on sunday only...so yeah lets hope we go for it, and we train real hard for it. afterall, its always not bad to gain more experience =) and i always love challenges...infact now im facing big big challenges from monkey =P 4 competitors XD lets hope the best man win!

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slept quite "early" this morning hehe...ard 7.30am =P
but its all right...had the greatest chat with monkey ever from 6 =)
thx for accompanying me monkey...have to drag ur slping time =(
well...ytd was a whole day out though, woke up at 10am becuz monkey need to go get mc T_T
but monkey dun allow me to accompany her...so i accompanied her sms all the way
after that she went home to slp. The mc was for her absent from a orientation camp i guess?
so i went to get ready and left home ard 3pm to go to JALAN KILANG BARU, to collect my claims
but didnt manage to collect it luh, they said will credit it into my pay...so expected pay is $1088.50
any cents less can complain to them le =P afterthat went to queensway lan shop..cuz was waiting for monkey and the bday gal to get ready...so i slack my time through at the lanshop for 2hours plus then head down to great world city to meet up with monkey and steph(bday gal)
had yoshinoya over there and i made some funny sounds with the plastic spoon against the bowl
SORRY >.< lol but funny when u see the both of them got a shocked =P they pratically jerk! lol
after that met up with melvin (who me and ben think is interested in monkey =P afterall she always attracted older guys XD) a nice chap though, able to communicate with him even though we have the age difference =x went to zouk as i guess, cuz i been in b4 last year march...was kinda familiar with the surroundings...BUT THAT DOESNT MEANS I CLUB OFTEN OKAY! just that i have a fantastic memory thats all *SNOBBISH* lol! so we were inside the club sitting down at one corner and relax and benjamin came to join us...another nice chap =D very talkative and siao on one...so me, ben and melvin chat our way through till another new guy came, leon....make so many new friends ytd luh! but leon was more of the quieter one...so didnt manage to get to talk much with him...so we were inside drinking, dancing and chatting, sry is not chatting, its SHOUTING! and monkey and her friends went to the dance floor. Inside the club saw many familiar faces, like kailing, joshua, tracy and many others, just that nv say hello to them...didnt know clubbing was such a HOT fav sport -_-" but afterall i enjoy myself la, especially the fighting part, woot! just that i aint involved, monkey sound pissed with the idea when i said i hope to be part of it XD lol kk no fighting, GUAI KIA! so thats the end of zouk
ard 3am, we made our way down to whisky bar located at boat quay, met up shawn and screw over there =x both came with a bao gong face >_< knowledge ="P" controlled ="D">.< sry ="X">_< then some small stuffs happen in the group, 1 unhappy party with 2 gl kia....so yeah...lucky nth manage to happen and we went home =) phew...else monkey sure will be in a really tough position XD reach home ard 5.30 and started washing up and stuffs, came online awhile and pei monkey sms and we talk on the phone! hehe...

feel so different upon seeing u! feeling just refreshed =)
guess im drying up on u...must be the affect of not seeing u for 2 weeks
but ytd..was a different...just feel different

and im happy that u held my hand =)
it really feels different, make me different though
& definitely, i told myself, i wont let you go
even if the distance btw u and me is like the star
ill just catch down the star, and put u in my hands
i did it! though its kinda kiddish and lame though -.-
but afterall, i love spending every moment with you =)

Labels: Mad About You

just got back from chatting with my clique...its been so long i felt since we really sit down and talked like the past, though its only 2 weeks...but it sure seems like ages...ytd went to Tampines 1...woot it open on 9 april and wahahaha...its a small vivo =D everything is there, no need to travel to town anymore =P so much changes...great changes over the 10 days Zzz...no wonder my mum said like she has nv seen me for abt a week becuz when im home, she is aslp, when i go to work, she havent wake up =x thats why i miss home so much, miss the laughter that i have with my family, miss pratically everything....just notice how much i have been so into work that i neglect everything. kinda regret it now though, but then if i dun work, i dun have the money to spend, kinda notice cash flow going low...can survive through but not enough to spend as i wanted too =x now work is done, pay not sure when is coming in, include the BLS job, they still owe me money, been for abt a mth Zzz...ass man....what a time indeed for me to run low on fund...just hope im able to survive thrug this FRIDAY, cuz its IMPT! debtors! do return me my money as promised...else ill go down knocking on ur door someday REAL SOON. just beware and pay up on time as promised! cuz these money means ALOT to me now! those is CAPS is becuz to show the importance! but i doubt u guys care abt it, cuz afterall, u guys just take the money and slowly take ur time to pay, some even avoid me....idiots! no more money lending...final decision, no more Mr. Nice Guy, only to some ppl ill lend. ass...tml going clubbing with monkey and her clique...hope i dont make a fool out of myself this time =) definitely, its to celebrate her friend bday...gotta present myself well and definitely entertain myself =D jia you ba! can do it de =)
been lazy, didnt blog for 2days le...but good thing is,
i manage to say out what im suppose to when i didnt =)
everything went smoothly i guess? aleast i manage to cleared a barrel that is existing btw me and monkey.
guess i was living in my own world afterall, monkey almost gave up on me...guess i did it at the last crucial moment =)
gonna meet monkey ltr on...maybe meeting cuz of some hiccups, but its all right =)
ill get to see her tml anyway i guess? been so tired after working, other than talking to monkey, just feel slpy and i wanna slp. didnt know i was tied down by so much stuffs, thats i actually neglect other stuffs...guess thats how working life is suppose to be, and i understand how tl lose his gf =x
well i almost lost mine too...but lucky i didnt manage to salvage mine in the end =)

well monkey, dont set up a defense barrel on urself =)
becuz once u set it up, i wont be able to get in.
knowing its hard to let ppl come in and stay,
but i guess this is what we call LOVE.
In love, there are bound to be heartache and sadness
thats becuz we care for each other and want the best for each other
imagine a love with no pain and sadness, just always laughing away,
it just shows one thing, the love is just purely not deep enough to hurt the other party.
so i hope =) u wont set up a defensive barrel on me right now, though words are empty,
i still hope u can trust me, im true towards you.
I cant promise u i wont hurt u in future, wont make u angry in future, wont disappoint u in future...but what i can promise u, is the present that I WANT TO BE WITH YOU, and ill do my best to keep u happy...i know are this are empty words, just give me sometime and ill prove it to u with my actions. all i need i just this little more confidence in me...i hope i wont give u anymore disappointment...becuz i let u down twice...and it hurts me very deep too =)

Labels: 1 More Chance Is All I Need

you're swaying...wonder what happen that makes you sway...
im sure there is stuffs going on, but you aint telling me...
im trouble and confused, to probe or not to probe.
surrounding voices came in bad and good tone...cant seems to find a solution myself
if everything you said or you think its a fairytale, it will just be a fairytale to you
but i aint going to give it up, im gonna turn my own fairytale into reality,
the princess to be you or not to be you, lies in your own hands,
afterall, it takes 2 hand to clap.
if you're swaying or having 2nd decisions thoughts, it will be hard for you to move on =)
anyway, i respect ur decision, and lets hope we can both work out a best solutions for both you and me =)
exhausted! thats what i have been feeling ytd Zzz...today and i slept till 3.45pm
its been so long since i had such slp...yawnz...meet with stars, talk with them, had nice chat with directors and camera man, all these were brand new experience...didnt know filming was such a difficult job. what i heard that this is one of the toughest project, becuz everything is in a rush, others is just 12 hours work, 12 hours rest, this is 16hours work, 8 hours rest. totally no enough slp the past weeks, no time to meet up anyone, no time for everyone pratically...such a boring life...short time, lots of money...but whatever it is, its finally over...time to enjoy myself...but still i have the paragon barrel to settle...lets just hope the company allow me to claim it. ltr gotta do some accounts and then have to go take my claims from them. guess ill go down to find them tml...just hope ivan is used to the SKW job.

many things happen, change, but definitely i hope u havent change. if u have change, i would really hope that i slap my bloody mouth. right now, kinda feeling empty...something is missing...cant really tell what is it, but its just something missing. guess thats what we called "feelings" ba...felt things is going down the hills now...which i hope it doesnt, becuz thats not the peak i wanted to stop at...i want to stop at a higher peak, i peak which is even higher than any mountain in this world. Definitely, i wont want to lose u =)
hehe...many days nv blog le...been working for this freelance company called "360"
sounds strange but thats why its called =) hmm all the ppl there are nice =D the CREWS! not the bosses. SUCKS! anyway...i knocked down a automatic barrel at paragon =X while i got too angry...guess my pay is a goner...but gotta ark with them to pay =P cuz really what, not my fault =X many things happen but dun wanna say it all out ba...too much to complain liao...make me become kp kia or typical singaporean...everything complain...lol yeah...monkey heard of it le...enough =D yeah thats abt all for work. been slping 4~5hours daily...got used to the hours le...3 more WORKING days!! Huat ar~

luckily i got you by my side =)
u always been my pillar of support, THANK YOU!
if its not for u, guess im out of the game soon already.
hehe...anyway really thx for the understanding...its been really hard on u
i promise ill make it up to u once everything is over. no matter how tired it is, how stupid it is, how hard it is, ill make it happen. & make it happen just for you =)
days will be over soon. Hope ur reading this.
anyway wanted to just say it here, didnt wanted to send u the sms
so here it goes =) this sun, lets go to easter together =)
i wanna watch the drama =D but its not a going to church thingy, but rather,
i feel like watching the drama =) and well i read ur blog, ur going with ur sis and mum
u can acc them if u want too =) or rather i can join u with them =X but guai guai ar...hai shi better not ba...else ltr no good impression, i die! yeah thats if u read this post =)
and hor! u owe me a pic! where is it huh? but i wont rush u for it =)
maybe it just slip off ur mind, cuz ur FORGETFUL afterall =D
so understandable =P hehe...

yeah work was tired, but its a fun thing becuz i always look forward to go home just to come online to chat with u...even though its just minutes of chatting, it just brighten up my day =)
guess ill turn in on time today...gotta wake up early tml to get stuffs...stupid boss! asshole! know today got work, last night still got chiong drinking...stupid retard...just dun step on my tail! MIA ar....lol always use MIA to threaten the boss...so he look me as an VIP =P k la that part just kidding! monkey know the truth....thats abt the minimum update abt me! been real busy!

Labels: i miss you =)

monkey went muar! but thats not the saddest thing, saddest thing is,
i have my own van now ZZzz thats 1
tml start works at 4 Zzzz thats 2
I CANT MEET MONKEY TILL DUNNO WHEN!!!! <---- most impt!
shag right? hehe...everytime timing not right...
driving on the road back was smooth i guess...maybe due to low traffic...
somehow today hp batt die fast, but afterall, manage to crawl thrug...
tml gotta top up lots of things,
1) Top up water
2) Buy ice
3) Top up cashcard
4) Buy clippers
5) Fill petrol tin
wonder how early shd i start to do all these...sianz sia...shd know do it b4 i got home. so tml can rest more...but anyway...monkey not ard...sianz sianz...hope she come back tml early so maybe can meet her for lunch or something? as usual, she always brightens up my day =)
so thats roughly abt all for today? got enough of rest, so aint that tired as expected...
but schedule gonna be packed for the next few days...sure everything is gonna rush...just be mentally prepared for it frist...after jake is gone next sunday, ill be in deep shit! becuz i have 2 useless boss, who only gives orders and do anything...and always give me the F**K**G shit saying must have lots of "initiative" but they themselves dont display it other than angkating the balls. Asshole! and just found out my pay is only $100 per day...damm u TL! say $100+...+ working my ass off, and paying my own transport huh? shit u! lol
thats abt all =) nitez! waiting for monkey to be back =) been missing u since 12.10pm =)


prepare everything le...time check 6.28...gonna leave hse soon...
monkey going malaysia today =D hope she is going there to enjoy herself =P
have more lut lut k? on me =P
anyway, dad, mum, bro and cuzzie gonna leave for msia too today =( dunno when will be back,
im all left alone at home ='( but nvm! monkey is back tml =P
hehe...lets hope today ends early too...though i have a long slp of 7 hours...but still its not enough to make it up! must have a real long slp like 10hours =P
just hope today everything pass as a breeze and no tekan...thats would be the very best i can expect =D lucky the A.director is a very nice guy towards the crew and the celebrities...crew members are all friendly too...just that they speak in dialect, only understand but can only reply in chinese or with a half past 6 dialect =P
hmm thats shd be abt all =) gonna miss ya so much =P but rmb! DO ENJOY URSELF!
and the next pic looks blurry =P did some photoshop? hehe...rmb im stalkiee...always stalking on u =P yi lu shun fong!
didnt blog the earlier day cuz was just too TIRED! work from 6am till 2am. actually also not i the only 1 tahan...the ppl there more power! all everyday start work from 7.30 work till same time as me...and they been doing it from 28mar? really need to salute them man...everyday slept for 1 and 1/2 hour nia..this r call PROS! lol...anyway was doing a job on production crew like i mention earlier...though the director are abit cock up =x but i guess ill just have to do my job well and get my pay...cant be bother with too much stuffs...its a taiwanese show though =) only know 1 actor and 1 actress...1 is kelly pan while the other one is wu shi kai. 9/10 are smokers (bad environment) just kidding...and the ppl always say must have initiative...now i know why le...becuz even my own boss is too freaking lazy just to throw a can into a trash point even when i set it beside him. Ass right? been a PA for the team, carrying water to celebrities and the crew...pack takeaway for them...drive them ard in a van (my fav) though long time nv drive =P and just do all the cleaning up and help out other crews...thats my basic duty...also know as SKW (Sai Kang Warrior) idiots...promise me a van for me to drive home...now? i everyday take mrt home...wonder if im the driver or am i being chauffer (MRT)...but today heng! ended early at 6.15 and i have to wait till 7 then can leave...have to take down number of ppl for breakfast...then have to take the squeezy stupid mrt and got squeeze like a im a hotdog, and the rest a bun -_-" and really wtf...a mum and daughter know my platform got no space le, see me then push her daughter in between me...then make me grind an indian guy...wth right? and was damm freaking heavy with the "nan ren wei" too tired to bother anything else...dinner was kfc 3pcs meal =D yum yum!

Hehe nv see any post of u right monkey? =P
the rest of the portion is urs =D and only YOURS =)
sry if i have been to tired to be there for u whenever u need someone monkey =)
gotta really apologise for not being able to get myself off the hook...just for the IMPT FRIDAY!
ass man! gotta find a way to make it up to u somehow =)
thx for always being so supportive and positive since the day i know u
its YOU! who makes me so happy and who i am today =)
definitely, i would do anything just to make u happy, ANYTHING i mean =)
and thx somebody for keeping the PROMISE "it" said "it" would do =D
so i wont be missing the "it" everyday...get to see hows everything going =P
got so many things to thank you luh...just too many things to thank =D
understand, patience, chances given, concern, sharing of my burdens, being positive, not asking for any returns....all this are the stuffs to thx you abt =)
wonder if i nv ever add u and get to know u, wonder how would my life be in now? wonder whos gonna accompany me thrug the night? wonder who would bring me out to NIGHT life =P wonder who would catch any new horror movies with me and most imptly, wonder whos gonna be a chapter in my life =) you make all these possible =) and its becuz of YOU! i guess i owe u too much this time...there is no other way for me to make it up to you but to do my best to keep u happy =) sry for all the smiley face =P just got too used to it XD thx for accompany me to sms all the way through work, thx for not finding me a bother becuz i always talk to u whenever ur online =P ( and it will continue!) and most impt! changing for me =) u did so much stuffs for me, and i just did my basic jobs...damm this make me feel even more guilty! if there is any way, ANY! that i can make it up to u, DO LET ME KNOW! thats becuz its the least things i can do for u =) sry for like repeating it =P told ya that i always get stuck when blogging XD

guess ur practising the "對的人" becuz i wanted to hear u sing it =P wahaha...thx for this one again =D yawn! tiredness is kicking in >.< sneezing ="P" cold =")" you ="P" it ="P" today =")">.< but i know its impossible becuz we have a stupid freaking asshole DIRECTOR, not A.director, A.director is kind and nice...DIRECTOR sucks! thats abt all to report =) clearer details only MONKEY needs to know...the rest next time then tell if u wanna know luh...but dun ka jiao me at these moments...tiredness is always beside me...touch me and ill bite...unavaliable and untouchable! VIP pass is only granted to monkey...becuz monkey is my energiser =D call me biased or what...but it doesnt bother me =P cuz i only need to make it up to MONKEY and not the rest of you....wahahah! nitez! and all the best to me =)

P.S. Its Cute =) thx for the wish come true =D i like it alot!


got myself a new job...introduce by tl....damm its a super duper heavy responsibility job luh!
need lots of concentration cuz i need to drive, need to help out to buy rice, top up drink, carry stuffs just do all the sai kang that is needed and kena tekan alot....damm worst is i cannot tahan kena tekan one...guess this is gonna be like army training...haiz...what to do? itchy mouth, say go help out...now kena dai ji dua tiao liao lor...shag...lets hope 15april come soon, so i can end everything once and for all
now comes the tricky part...just when things started to sail smoothly, i have to work, and its almost like a FULL TIME JOB? damm...sometimes i really blame my itchy mouth man...damm! hope maybe ill get sacked soon? =D just like how im replacing the current driver who did nth much...leo say will take turn with me...but i dont want the ppl to get mixed up cuz leo will be like a newbie, dunno whats the rule and stuffs...guess ill have to take it all the way till 15 april...BUT SOMEHOW I FELT..HMMM MAYBE IF IM TIRED, SLEEPY OR WANNA GO OUT WITH MONKEY, I'LL JUST SWITCH SINCE THE PERSON GAVE THE GREEN LIGHT...SO MONKEY NO WORRIES! WE WILL MEET AGAIN SOON =p....now im worried things will change, FEELINGS, not mine but hers =X but i have confidence in her =) lets hope everything pass in a breeze...if i have this job, but im gonna lose YOU, ill rather lose this job...i want u more then the job, i need u more then the money they pay, i need u more than i need myself...
sometimes, i rather want u to be selfish, not supporting me =) becuz through this way, i know u care =D and now i know u care, but i cant do anything...so retard of me...but trust me, once everything is over, ill do my very best to make up for all the loss time and give u the best i can ever give. Thats becuz I Love You =)

P.S. Do Be Selfish For Me Sometimes, Thats Becuz Through Selfishness, I Know You Care =) A Monkey Lover =)

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