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hate it when it comes to blogging to think of a title...cuz i always dun have a main topic for my blog =P so anyhow just put a title name...today kill alot of brain cells le, keep thinking of my proauto programme...cant even work until last minute lo....damn it...after can work le teacher want us to add more item inside....shag...have to rethink another solutions to it somemore today date due but lucky teacher give 1 week extra for us to do....exam coming le, having study for anyhting yet....think this year sup paper cannot pass le...wondering if i shd continue to study in poly or just drop out? drop out go army then come out with O level cert cant go far...continue study come out with a lousy results = Olevel cert then somemore might have to stay longer to complete my diploma....use to have a dream of taking a diploma even with the worst results then go into air force but now think abt it, is it a dream that is too far for me to achieve? too much things in my hand now to achieve but all like from rocks become to sand le...all getting blown away from my hand le....bits by bits, till one day now more sand will be left in my hand....that will be the day my life ended....=D nitez!
wahaha....skip 1 day again le....hmm why leh? cuz just lazy to blog ba =P wait is it 1day? i dun think so ba nvm....anyway ytd did nth much, just woke up early brought my cousin for breakfast then sent him to the airport cuz he going back to malaysia le T_T sob sob...nobody acc my play liao...after that went makiyo house, lol see him botak like not used to it lo...with the black specs look like nerd =X keke....but he got to leave at 6pm to book in camp so we left and i acc leo to buy his long sleeve shirt at g2000...then also buy yj bday gift, a pouch which cost $12....went to eat dinner at 844 then jiu went home pd le...well leo say can enter tampines central for wai wei, dunno if its confirm but have to train thats all lo....anyway skills drop le, but today manage to qie ppl...lol so song lo when i qie him =X using speed instead of faking him....=P but thats what i have only ba....nth much more i can do le except shoot and be a decoy...cuz i cant jump high, cant control the ball so no difference de....but did some special exercise with leo at his house gym...called air alert III....hope it will be useful ba cuz like gong kia sia when we do it in the gym room =X anyway thats abt all ba....hurt my ankle le =D cuz when i was abt to jump, 1 idiot step on my shoe then making the impact all falls on the ankle thus injuring it...but afterall still can walk la just hope old that time wont hurt anymore le...nitez!
Today wasnt a boring day =D after so many days passed by....morning woke up then went to have breakfast cum lunch with my aunties and cousins at a nearby coffee shop....after that brought my cousin to a bakery shop as they were told by their mum to buy some bread for tea in late afternoon...after that help them called a cab, damn was raining lo have to stand in the rain for abt 20mins b4 we manage to get a cab. All cabs are either hired or on called...stupid man...always in need of cab, cab not free. No need cab, plenty of cab for u....Zzz...anyway after that went to watch The Simpsons Movie....not a bad one, quite funny show but well aleast it manage to take off the things that going through my mind daily...felt better during the show cuz i had lots of laugh...a sure must watch show for saddist like me =P...after that jiu head straight to kallang liao cuz have to reach indoor stadium b4 8pm. Gonna watch wrestling =D sianz sia...walk abt 30mins to reach the indoor stadium from the kallang mrt then still have to queue lo....the queue lasted abt half the size of the indoor stadium lo...stupid me and my cousin, we went all the way to queue to find out actually we r premium seatings -_-" we have advantage and shortcut to our seats....lucky i found out early and wasnt late for any match....well the wrestling match is not too bad just that we didnt manage to get 1st seatings...didnt manage to touch the wrestlers T_T espically Rey Mysterio and Bastisah...both my fav but just manage to see them in less then 1m radius cuz sitting too far from them....well took lots of photo too, of the wrestler but not me nor my cousin...too engross in the stun they made although we know its fake but well its a form of entertainment what....cant be help....after the show, both of us bought a shirt which kane on it which cost $35 for each T_T so all together cost $70....heartpain lo =( $70 sia....wanted rey mysterio dun have, undertaker also dun have, bastisah also dun have sianz....left kane nia....after buy liao then have to walk 30mins back to the mrt station again -_-"....jiu head for home le....didnt eat dinner nor have anything cuz we r too tired to go anywhere else....Zzz...thats abt all for today...nitez =)
retributions ar....lol....last time treat ppl no good when u need help, nobody bothers to care abt u...what goes ard comes ard =) and its true...im sorry to those i neglect in the past...truely sorry ba....but anyway...didnt blog ytd cuz was out having late dinner with mk, garry and yj....then went to prime mart and bought some snacks after our dinner and sat down and talk some craps.....they play the top 3emo songs in my list -_-".....cant get rid of it lo T_T...the top 3 are bu neng shuo de mi mi, wo hai shi heng ai ni and zhu ti qu....anyway after finish chatting le jiu come home and i watch battle royale II...not as nice as the first le ba....but cant watch it halfway due to some bugs in crunchyroll...after that jiu head for bed already....morning woke up ard 10plus then prepare for sch liao....its been so long since i last carry an unbrella to sch lo.....but well its been raining the past few days....another season is coming, there goes the old season and all the old past....cant seems to forget and move on....strange....things are pulling me back...not i dun want to let go but just memories are pulling me back...everywhere i go i see memories....just like today went to eat, went to my auntie house, pass np, pass KAP mac, pass the food centre and everything....its not i dun want to erase, is i cant erase when i keep seeing them....i cant possibly dig my eyes and wash my brain huh? well i could just knock me out with a hardstick...craps...anyway after dinner, went to my auntie cuz just picked up cousin from the airport cuz we going to watch wrestling tml...just hope its entertaining....thats abt all for today ba....just wanted to say if ppl need ur help, u ignored them in the past, in future u need ppl, u will be ignored....thats called retribution...
Today all lesson was canceled so i only have jap tutorial to go for =D went jap tutorial at 2 and it ending at 3.30 with my listening test and script correction. After that went home and upload outrun into my psp cuz im going to meet leo at sch at 5pm. Going to rp to watch his match against combine ITE....wanted to see who desmond is. Well saw him, didnt really see him perform very much....but the earlier match was np against rp....np won...congrats.....after that jiu went to eat mac at tampines lo with the shuttle bus sending us back....meet all the strong players in tp...even if get into team also feel very proud lo but thats a dream la....lol...well heard from tree, chances are created by urself, not whether ppl want to give it to u anot...hmm just try harder ba...many things to leave behind many things to move on...nitez =) tot i saw u at rp but turn out it wasnt u....im still missing u right now...
blog blog blog....keke ytd nv blog cuz lazy but feel uncomfortable...so today blog again....hmm ytd sianz lo....after come home from machtech, did nth le just come home MU then slp from 6.30 to 8plus then did some exercise after that bath le jiu go out have supper with yj....thats ytd...today also not much better just that woke up at 9.45 then play psp till 10.15. followed by that went to bath then style my hair go sch for lesson le.....finding my life is boring nthing to spice it up yawnz.....after lesson end le jiu go home MU again then went to have dinner at 844 with my uncle who came from bukit batok....to think that i always passes his house weeks ago but dun think ill have that much chances anymore....anyway after eat le jiu stay at home play psp for awhile until 7.30 play dota with leo, tl, mk and yj then 8.45 went down 840 shoot shoot ball....today got an aim le....aim basket shot for 100 times....manage to complete it but take a long time.....still rmb years ago i was doing this 200 times and its was nth but now 100 times was like hell to me....damn it....im old but still useless....cant get stronger and thats the truth.....reality is cruel...have to face it, i dun have much more time to play bball, but well nvm....then after that went to eat at old prata again at 10.45....yawnz...tml going to watch TP vs again Combine ITE...wanna she how that desmond look like and how good is he, heard he is singapore team....wanna see how pro he is....okay thats abt all ba....still not confirm going cuz like going alone sia....damn ps lo with the sch team -_-" nitez!
hmmm im not so IT noob for today ba.....haha....i manage to figure out how to connect to the internet using wireless le....lets start off with today morning ba....woke up by alvin at 9.15 to tell me 10 am go down play bball at 840....reach there at 10.15 but wasted 1hours waiting just to play our first match...trash the uncles with 9-0 but we lost as the 2nd match 9-4....wasnt really happy abt it cuz i put in all effort but my teammates just failed me but nvm la its all right...over le....then after that we went to eat kfc at ard 2.30....then suddenly all plan to go wee hou house to play lan cuz we all can connect into the same lan port and play the same game....so we went and reach ard 5 then started playing till ard 8plus then we went to have our dinner after that jiu went home le....upon reaching home, i immediately set the wireless connect to my lappy and i manage to do it =D finally after 3mths i manage to get it =P....after that connect le jiu upload some games into my psp...did some exercise then jiu have dinner at home liao....thats abt all for today ba.....im starting to take things lightly le cuz i heard this song "all good things comes to an end" and its true....rmb ur msg once put flame to dust, lovers to friends.....was thinking abt it last time but now i figured it out...its just a song lyrics and i was really thinking too much....no wonder u gave up on me....well its over le time to buck up myself....sch tml Zz...think abt sch jiu sianz....same as usual, NEVER INTERESTED IN STUDYING.....
so many things has happen already....its over within 3mths. Take it as a slp ba dun wanna think too much dun wanna be to upset abt it cuz i know it wont turn back time or change anything...yawnz...today morning went to nic house to ask his sis convert the songs to be able to put into my blog...after convert liao jiu went to sim lim with leo and garry cuz leo wanna purchase his new desktop....he spend abt 2k on his desktop lo...while me only buy 1 psp memory card, 1psp battery and 1 card reader...now is giving me headach lo...cant seems to convert the downloaded games into iso format....sianz...need ppl help but none of them is there to help...past few days also dunno consider good or bad? always see things that u and me did b4...i mean serious why ar? even go STORM cut hair, the hairdresser who cut my hair wear the sames watches u bought....i was like...whats going on? why cant i just shake off stuffs....its not i have nv go through this b4 but why make me go through it again? im trying to ease my pain as soon as i can cuz i know the main exam is in few weeks time....haiz....cant seems to brighten up my day as nth seems to be coming out daily....
today its the 19 =)....everything has come to an end i believe...thats the answer we have for both of us but we didnt have to chance to tell each other....somethings are better left unsaid i believe.....i have tried and now i wish there is another chance for me to try but unfortunately, TIMES UP! its over...there is so many things i wish to do right now but its over....didnt blog ytd and didnt wanna blog today cuz i know its gonna be a hard day for me....well its over, guess ill have to move on alone once again. Just like the song bu neng shuo de mi mi. Why do ppl who are in love always cant get together? there is only 1 reason, love is never around, is only a moment of harshness i believe...the song bu neng shuo de mi mi is indicating that a couple are in love but there where nv together, always spending time together but it only lasted for 1 season. the male party try hard to get back the r/s but its seems to goes no where....missing a person for him is so hard just when the female party told him that putting down will walk further and happier...just like the story of u and me. sorry for being like this but i guess this will be the last time...wishing u all the best and sry for hurting u in the past...i know my lesson now, thx for making me the stranger in the end. Its my fault =) ur nv wrong and thats true...thank you =') ill be smiling again someday but not that soon
yawnz....today wake up ard 11.45 then i go sch at 1pm which by right sch start at 12. i skip lecture....since sch reopens, i have nv been to any lectures le...keke....been very lazy...been very moody nowadays =P...rating for temper 9.5/10...finding ways to let out the steam b4 it hits 10....the boiling point....on top of that....whats getting me pissed off often is the lag in internet, the stress from sch and the problems i have to face in life....espically in bball now...now den i notice actually i have no been jumping higher when im suppose too...what shd i do? i already gave my best and this still happen to me? maybe more hardwork is needed to be put in to achieve better results....aiyo....life is always so bad for me...i always though things will go better this year after the start of april...but who knows it only lasted for a few months, followed by was crashes of my dreams and hope....well i shdnt be sitting here complaining how bad life shd be ba...instead i shd be standing up and keep on walking ba....cant help that life is bad for me. i know if i continue to sit down and complain life is bad, it will get no where instead but get worst...well it takes time to move on but right now, i just wish to sit back and relax till im better b4 moving on...becuz its really not easy for me to get over this rock again which i encounter 3years back...thats y i was very afraid this will happen and turn out this way but well...it just happen...wishing it was further away but well the truth is in my face now...ill just have to face it afterall...things have change, so does u, that includes me as well...been blogging everyday now but ur stopping already....a change in our chara but not fully just partially...just accept to changes and face life...thats what i shd do now right? but i know its not that easy =) nitez!
pain pain....its what i felt the whole day....pain in the heart and pain everywhere....my heart is real full of wound now....what happen? just feeling real moody the whole day....cant focus on things im doing...just glad that today is over....tml is a new day...looking forward till tml...but who knows tml right? what abt the day after tml? haiz...but all i know that these days im not gonna be happy at all...well aleast not think of committing suicide....no worries....no longer that silly le....just FEAR it ba....Face Everything And Recover OR Fuck Everything And Run...well its copied again...from one of my friend....always copy his nick de....there still so many things i wanted to tell but seems like theres nobody to share....or rather is i dun want to share ba...blame it on myself ba...im always to be blamed for everything....not trying to make my life sad but thats the truth....LIFE IS NEVER FAIR....so just faced it....get the blamed and get over with this life....doing my best for everything but nth will come out in the end....so meanwhile just get over with it lets see the next wall coming and bang again....wonder how many walls can i stand bang and stand....just see ba....nitez!
Woot...today woke up by yj again telling me bball got cancel -_-" tmd make me wake up for nth sia...i was so tired becuz i slept at ard 2am lo...then instead of wake up go 840 play 5on5, i continued to slp till ard 11.30 when yj again woke up me up for breakfast....well, for breakfast i had dim sum which cost $4.50 lo....expensive? okay la...not really though....dim sum ma...after breakfast dun even have any programmes lo until leo says he wanna watch harry potter...since we nth to do so went to watch lo...me, yj and leo watch that show watch until backside pain lo...the show lasted for 2hours 30mins lo....somemore we sitting first row...head have to tilt up and watch....lol...head pain lo...but bo bian the rest of the show all full le...haha so watch it lo...after watching the show jiu head down to SBC to watch leo match...home utd against xue lian...xue lian win again lo...with 9points....every year xue lian win one...lol...after the match finish liao...got the award ceremony lo...feel so grand lo like if become champion...hope i was born 1 year younger then go play for some seeded team lo...wa! can get the milo kong beh pai leh!...lol wishful thinking...nth comes without hard work lo...but many bballers comes kio award without hard work de =X k la skip that topic...its sensitive...seeing like makes me wanna have the urge to play bball competition lo...but the standard i have now...haiz....train harder lo! aiming for wai wei and xuan qu....but thats a dream seems so far away....Nothing Is Hard Unless You Think Its Hard.....keke....take it simple and lightly and ill be able to reach ba =D...wishful thinking =X keke....k la thats abt all today lo...just that after the award ceremony went to have dinner at the same old place "Old Prata Shop"....keke...thats abt all...nitez!
haha its the end of saturday....5days left....from 1mth to 5days =P....to think i can still be laughing...stupid lo...anyway well today got scold by u, but actually not scolding but i know ur pissed off with me already....haiz its my fault....MY FAULT! =D well what can i do? other then face sadness might as well face happiness complete my days? keke...well today same as usual got waked up by yj to go eat breakfast...after eat liao, yj cancel his job and alvin saw it and did the same too...after breakfast went home to get prepared to go swimming cuz yj wanted to get tanned....so we went to swim at leo house but didnt really swim la just sit there to get ourselves tan while leo and alvin just went into the water for abt 30mins then went to pa pool liao...sometimes i really wonder what so nice abt pool? strange anyway didnt manage to get myself tan la cuz the sun not strong enough...after that went to eat at tampines acardia....not bad the food, the portion also quite big then the pricing okay la...got air-con what?...then went down to ntuc and bought a waffer to eat again....cant fill myself after swimming and a plate of noodles from the tampines acardia so i bought another packet of biscuits....keke...then went home and watch naruto and munching away my time....thats how i spend my day ba...nth much special...same as usual....got to be slping now =) nitez! i know i shdnt be taxing u so much anymore...just a few more days....im sorry for the stubbornness in me ='( im real sorry...
today is a real bad day man...lol....as expected its Friday the 13th....nowadays so sianz lo...see so many couple break up lo...keke....see liao also sianz...now is break up season lo....hehe....but i aint fit to talk abt others though....anyway morning wake up went to sch manage to concentrate in class ba then after that went to have lunch with yj, raymond, leo and garry....after eating le jiu went home lo. Did nth much in particular except watch bleach 126 to 131...after that read my fav comic "ti yi shen quan" then went to slp till 8pm and went down to play bball...the bball match not too bad la...my standard still okay lo....after that jiu went home bath and went out to eat dinner with yj and alvin..thats abt all for today ba =D nitez....just hope today will pass by faster cuz its a unlucky day for me....leave those unlucky things unsaid ba =) nitez!
keke =P ytd got tired and lazy so didnt manage to blog...was not used to it after been doing it so long...but nvm =D ytd was makiyo last celeberation b4 he goes into the army....so we went to his house to eat pizza hut and kfc...the whole team was presented...lol...so grand lo....keke but anyway i passed him the present i bought with her but it was wrapped in newspaper =X its not i niao ji or what but is i have no time to go buy for him...felt so sry and ashamed abt it...sry makiyo...keke...but ytd theres time la just that i overslpt and i overslpt for my dynamic tutorial ba =X i missed out 1 tutorial liao...another attendence drop le...class participation drop again liao...nvm ba...this sem already like that le...im preparing for sup...what to do? im born STUPID! failed in studies, failed in bball, failed in r/s failed in everything....nth i did was success at all...haiz...im a real fallen creature...even more fallen then many of them out there...haiz...nth much to type le ba...thats abt all for today tkcr...=)
keke...8days to go =P...well things have been going smoothly so far ba just that im still slacking my days through =D...doing nth everyday just come home eat slp eat slp and do some exercise ba...tml going to makiyo house to eat the last dinner with him b4 he enters the army but i havent even wrap his present yet....lol.....as usual came home from jap lesson late cuz was doing the roleplay script...manage to get it completed but im the main chara -_-" sianz lo my group all introvert de...meaning all doesnt dare to express themselves de....all throw to me, think im an introvert too...siao liao lo...but nvm la just do it ba if failed this CDS again have to retain for 4.1 liao lo...GG...dun wanna stay so long lo...feel like slapping myself sia...keke...dunno for what reasons also =P....anyway after that went home to take a short nap then went down to play bball with yj...thought of just shooting some balls but whose knows alvin turn up and 3china guys wanna challenge us for some games...we played against them for 3set...first set we won, 2nd set the won and 3rd becuz of me AGAIN we lost 11-10...haiz...why is it always me de? seeing ppl can play for sch team like so easy but why not me? even a guy who lose to my team standard can enter sch team why not me? haiz....maybe my chance was never here ba...when will i ever get that chance? ppl who got it, dun appreciate it, ppl lose it then they complain for it, ppl who doesnt get it? they wanted it...its just so unfair lo...if only 1 chance was given to me, ill do my best to achieve it....just like how i give it up for u =)....nah lets not get into that topic....but i know "shi qu cai hui dong de zhen xi, dan wo zhen xi ni" thats what i know ba =) nv take u for granted =) hmmm nth much to say le ba....ur not online again must be aslp from the tired training ba =D hurts to see ya tired out urself like that =) anyway just tkcr ba...best wishes from me for ur POL-ITE! Gambatte =)
ZZzz...keke...today ar....hmmm okay lo not too bad just that woke up early morning eat noodle nia...then went to sch for lecture and tutorials lo...until 5plus...then went home to slp...keke....slp liao wake up then went to east coast to eat my brother's fav "yu sheng" then had porridge too...then after that eat liao jiu go home lo...nth much happen today la...cuz i did nth much to make my life wonderful anyway =D..keke...nitez!
today is makiyo bday =D...keke...went out with him to eat and spend his last few days b4 he goes into army...well morning wake up le went to sch to do Machtec again...so fast weeks passes lo...but well...i manage to complete the task given to me and hand up and left the class first one....after that went home to catch some slp becuz we are meeting at 4.30 to go out instead of 1.30 le...after that meet liao went to play pool at marine parade till ard 8pm...then went to eat fish & Co...bought a cake for makiyo and the whole Fish & Co. workers sings for him and gave me a photograph with their well wishes on top of the photo ba...so good lo although we spent abt $150 on the whole meal with a 10% discount...keke...then after that we proceed to katong shopping centre to while tyco, yj, garry, makiyo and tl went to play dota me, ys, mk and alvin went to the arcade to play daytona...lol tot i can play the 80 round one lo but only can play de 8round one -_-" sianz lo always got the last few position...lol....forget it ba...keke...got fun jiu hao after that jiu went home le lo...the journey home was so quiet lo....then mk started breaking the silence by saying wha! why today so emo ar....lol we got a shocked he would say that kind of stuffs lo...hehe...but well thats was a short period of fun with had together too...after that went home to bath and talk to anna =) thx for enlighting me up...thx =) nitez all!
today did not do nth much today except wake up early morning, went downstair to play bball at 840...played 5 on 5 and it SUCKS totally lo....8balls attempted 6 were 3point. 2balls was airball, 1 under net miss shot and last one is tio kup when i makan that guy...but forget it la...lol lousy is lousy la only can train more lo....okay la after that game went to eat with yj and botak...then went home bath then go sbc by botak's car...watch leo match against whye nam and tagawa against DOS....was a interesting match though....watching all those pros play makes me have the itcy to play better but i know those are talented players...im nth compared to them...anyway i know ppl would say if u train hard, things are not impossible...but i know keke...u need some talents to play better though....but thanks silli =) if u cant always do the same old thing and get used to it, theres no point of changing it...i got it...thx silli =) anyway after that went to eat macdonalds with mak, yj, leo, mk and alvin...then go home read comic then call silli gal and chat for abit an hour =) thats abt all ba...keke...tata nitez again =)
12 more days to go...upon reaching 19July, i believe its gonna be hard for me ba =) enough of that =D today i had a great day =P think i have lots of things to type ba =) Early morning was woke up by yj to go down for a garage sales....went down at 10.30 but who knows the sales start at11.30...so during that time we went to eat breakfast...after breakfast, we went back to the garage sales and me, yj, ys, leo, tyco and alvin bought lots of stuffs...i bought 2pairs of high cut shoe and a dry fit shirt...leo kio tio lo buy a leborn james pants for only 2.50 when the usual price cost 50usd lo...sianz...anyway its all right la...after the garage sales i went home to eat some home made sandwiches made by my mum =)....after that went to meet silli at vivo cuz getting makiyo bday present...well went to many shops, looking at clothes and watches....but could not decided what to get for makiyo so we went back to toys R us to get him sea monkey toy as we planned initially. Inside Toys R Us silli did something very funny lo, she went to record the voice of a very irritating toy lo, making it as her ring tone msg lo...hehe then the whole day with her was like "ai yai yai yai yai yai~ cring cring santa claus~ ai yai yai yai~" lol so funny lo...but its all right la...thats what makes me like her also thats her uniqueness too =') anyway after getting makiyo present, silli kept holding on to makiyo present...but i know it a sign that she doesnt wants to give me her hand to hold cuz she doesnt wants to hurt me anymore, but by doing that its hurting me more silli =') anyway after we got makiyo present, we decided to catch Transformer but it was full house after all...so cant watch anything lo den we decided to walk ard somemore then silli went to get the watch which she set her eyes on it earlier on...as i wanted to get the black one which is same model with her, but on the other hand, thinking that things cant be force de ba...anyway she was right i wont wear it often why buy but i believe if i buy that watch, it shd be on with me whenever im at where now ba...maybe not forever but for the time being definitely it will be =') after silli got her watch, we continued shopping cuz silli wanted to look for her shoe insole...so we walk and walk until reach her fav shop ADIDAS! keke...went in to look for her insole but who knows meet my friend inside when i was just telling silli that if she want ADIDAS items can get my friend to get it at 30% off...but unfortunately, ADIDAS nv sell any insole....so we went to eat at Terra lo.Upon reaching, silli got a shock that she saw the so called "waiter" who came to serve us look like Irene who we worked under b4....lol so funny lo her expression. She really got chua tio lo...taking a few seconds to get back to her senses...keke...then we sat down to have lasagna with strawberry kiwi milk shake while silli has sweet sour fish with spaghetti....keke when footing the bill so paiseh lo...instead of taking out notes, i took out receipt lo....lol so malu sia...then when i turn out to see the view, i saw the mono rail....still rmb on 16april silli and me took the mono rail to my chalet, so many things happen over there...throughout the whole dinner so many things appear in my mind. Will this be our last meal together? Will we still be together? Wil we still be friends? Will u be more happier without me? sry...got carried away again...anyway after the meal, silli suggested that we take bus go home ba...of course ill definitely go along with her decision so we walk pass harbor front center to get a bus....but while walking on the bridge, i can see the cable cars flying ahead of us....its like memories just keep coming back lo...im sorry silli i didnt mean to do that but i just cant get rid of whats left behind btw u and me...other than sorry i reall dunno what else shd i say...but when the moment u held my hands on, how i wish this has nv happen b4, just carry on the same old ways we can be...the memories just keep floating in my mind wishing i could get back to 10june when we were sitting in the cable car having dinner together...its just still so fresh...even when queueing, im still staring at the cable cars thinking of what happen on 10june. Think think think until tears almost came out uncontrollable...but i know now is not the time to think of that ba...so i try my best to pack up my feelings and concentrate all on u b4 its too late...but after getting on to the bus, when we listen to music, the feelings just came back again somehow, and uncontrollable, the tears manage to flow out...hoping to hide it from u, but i know its impossible cuz its too late for me to do anything to make it up...im sorry ='(...i just cant help it...sry for being so emotional silli...i don't mean too trust me, i just cant help myself...im really sorry....after the bus 963 ended, i manage to pack up my emotions ba...manage to show u the last side of strong me, sending u home hand in hand till u got ur stuffs ready and send u over to ivy house....all these is the strong side left of me...im already broken into pieces...i need help from no one else except u...just u will do...just a chance from u is all i need but i know its impossible for me to do that...cuz to u, doing this is just giving urself chance to hurt me. BUT thats only ur thinking, u have nv consider my thinking cuz i know POL-ITE and IVP is nearby followed by will be ur TRACKS. Those will end ard november, I CAN WAIT!! I CAN WAIT! all u need to do is to give urself and me a chance to prove that this r/s can work...all we need is just a chance ='(...after all, i have already open my world to accept u, im still waiting for a chance to enter ur world again...do i get the chance again? =') thx for being with me....never will i forget that a person called Ice(Yvonne Neo Yi Wen) once appeared in my life...cuz its u who brought me back into love...i ought to thank you silli...once again thanks and 4056830968 and its still going on....
today is a great day for me ba....aleast i manage to say out what i wanted to say to you =) doing all these is worthwhile for me cuz aleast i know i love you...and im doing my best to be there for you, but without knowing that ur upset seeing me like this...im so sorry to cause u so much sadness...its all my fault...but aleast let me go pass the last 12days ba =) right now wonder if i shd cry or what? knowing the r/s is going no where or is it going to move on? i have no idea....just hope those words i said have already tell u whats inside my heart....other than i love you, i have nth else to say....just I LOVE YOU...hoping u can just look back all the times we spend together? all those moments we had...its still so fresh in my mind, i could just think of it everyday...its not even boring for me....when i have my free time, memories of these just comes back again and again...its just so new...but if its becuz of me that makes u feel so unhappy, im willing to let u go =) ill just bear all those on myself ba....its not as if i have nv bear it b4...just that its gonna be a real hard time again =) but no worries i can bear it. But i still all those sweet words u told me "I'll Never Let Anyone Hurt You, Including Myself" its still so fresh....sry im not trying to make u feel guilty or feel that u shd keep up ur promises, just that i wanna keep this memories fresh in me....finally im tearing now...didnt know it hurt to face the truth...but i still gotta face it somehow =) just let me tear it all out ba....becuz i know there still more to come =) still deeply in love with my silli gal =')
yawnz....finally get to talk to u after so many days le....well definitely i feel happy but dunno why when i saw the msg in ur msn, im kinda reluctant to face the truth....hinting? hmmm maybe the 14days is a sign of warning for me to wake up le ba =D but lets not think too much again after all there is still 14days.....well today woke up late for lesson, although i did plan to go for it AND I REALLY MEAN GO FOR IT =P but even if i go, ill be consider absent so might as well take that lesson off my daily routine =D....well i went back to slp of course when im so sleepy till ard 12pm then woke up and went out to get my breakfast...did nth much in particular except for gaming and gaming...then ard 3.45 went back to sch cuz i have a tutorial on...seems like nowadays i can manage to get a clearer understanding of what the teacher is teaching....just that i need somemore studying on my own thats all...well i need to find the motivation source too =D...the lesson ended abit late then when im abt to go home, i called yj and ask him something and i was told makiyo wanna have meal with leo so i decided to join them =P met makiyo ard 5.15 then waited for leo until ard 6.15 like that....then makiyo was kping him for being so late lo...lol damn funny lo when leo says he has the money for makiyo to eat but found out that the pay will only come tml...then leo was being told off by makiyo till dunno like what lo...see like also cant stop laughing...anyway the meal was called off afterall....then i went home and slack for awhile b4 heading for training...today training did nth much also just reach 813 played 3on3 for awhile then went to 900+ to continue playing...upon reaching there already got ppl jio us play 5v5...so we played and the game lasted for 21balls....we only manage to score 17 like that sianz...but okay la...experience after all? =X not really lo...the game almost the whole team flunk! shoot ball cannot score, lay up ball roll out, net shot also MISSED! thats ridiculous lo...lol anyway its over le la...just try again next time lo....well today okay la everything turn out...can say im contented de but still the reply u gave was like bo chup...nvm lah! lol i cant ask for more le...this little bit from u is really enough for me =) thx...i had a happi day becuz of this ba =)
keke...today morning wake up was late for my jap lec so i skip it again =D hehe...then went for dynamics lab....just using computer to do some simple and hand up and get the 5marks for the project =P will i was the first to manage to do everything while everyone was struggling with it...felt so proud of it but theres actually nth much to be proud of it ba =)....anyway after the lab lesson instead of having the APEL lesson we had a meal session with the teacher instead....cuz our teacher owe us $200 which was given by the school so we used the money to eat instead...after that lunch, immediately i went home to get my jap tutorial book getting ready for jap tutorial at 2pm...during halfway the lesson, my teacher dunno why, out of so many ppl to pick, she picked me and ask a question =P which was quite funny...lol she first ask in japanese:"JunJie-san, kanojo desu ka?" meaning do i have a gf? lol i was stunned by that question so i replied which gf she refers to? r/s one or just friends but its was r/s. So i tried to keep mum but she answer hai! meaning yes! and i got hooked T_T follow by was:" JunJie-san JunJie-san, kanojo kawaii desu ka?" haha no choice i just replied:"kawaii desu" =D meaning cute...followed by:"JunJie-san JunJie-san, kanojo onamae wa?" meaning ur gf name is? lol this time i kept real quite just feeling shy while the whole class was giggling away until my tease say that its a secret hai? lol...well all these seems that i shd be proud of, but why aint i? cuz i dun have u to share it with =)....but its all right, u must be real busy with ur stuffs which i cant blame u for actually...im not unhappy, is just that why cant we be like the past? no matter how tired or how busy u ar, there is always time for us to chat though...maybe is becuz once being together, the feelings will be different for each other from the way we felt b4 being together....or maybe im just being too fast? hating myself for all these but i roughly can see whats going to be on 15days ltr...not planning to think too far not planning to think near too...just wanna be honest with u in my blog cuz i dun want u to say im pulling down myself...really wish i had sometime to meet up with u and tell u what i really wanna say...but anyway after the jap tutorial did nth in particular just come home and same old pattern GAMING! lol...after gaming ard 8plus went to cut hair....this time cut le like funny funny de....but bo bian cut le, cant grow back within few weeks de =P well might as well go for new hairstyle ba....but still u didnt even know i cut hair le....cuz ur not on the phone with me now...many things u dunno abt me le ba neither do i know abt u le....feel like we r drifting apart. Anything i can do to make it go back? Does it really means i have to give up? forget it =P there is still 15days....lets not spoilt it ba...be it good or bad we shall see....got my pay le but makiyo's mum seems to make matter very big, even wanna bring the late payment to Xin Ming Wan Bao cuz they pay was delay day by day...but anyway pay is here, will let u get ur pay tml =) hope it does really helps u...nitez....
Unfortunately, days are running out for me =)...there is only 16days left...hoping i can endure through them =D.....anyway today morning woke up alone without anyone waking me up cuz nobody is at home except for dad who is actually slping cuz he got to work in the night shift....well woke up ard 11.50. Knowing i was late for lecture, i decided to skip it and stayed at home to cook Kim Chi noodle for my breakfast....still the standard is still so different from the one u cooked for me....but it was all right after all ba....then went to sch for maths tutorial and a lab...during that period of time, i manage to study and found out that actually i can make it de, just that im lazy...yawnz...lesson suppose to end at 5 but then went home at 4 cuz it ended early...reach home liao do nth lo just on com then watch tv till ard 6.30. Then went to slp till 8.30 like that wake up then game again lo. Until 11 like that then meet leo they all go eat dinner then come home liao. Congrats to leo for winning against xue lian...seeing my friends all got progress in bball....really feel so inferior to them lo....tried so hard to improve le finally see something and still they are still ahead of me as always...maybe im not cut out for bball out ba, playing for the sake of it now....but nvm...still there is a place for me to play so might as well even if its play for the sake of it, JUST PLAY IT! thats abt all ba...tata...its been a week since i last saw u...nv have it been like this...i miss you alot =') wonder if u do feel the same??
keke...today sianz lo...morning wake up go sch then do the lab machtech =D keke...just found out that actually when u try hard enough its not that hard to get things done =P as for today i manage to complete a task given by my lecturer on my own....its just that the little bit more effort i put into it thats all ba...actually its that simple things thats we tend to think too much that makes us confuse....just handle with what u have at the moment, the future let it be ba =) sometimes we just search for things so hard that actually its just right infront of us but we just didnt manage to notice it....well keke...nth much particular abt this meaning just that suddenly thought if it then write down lo....then after sch suppose to go work de....but instead i went home to rest and relax till abt 1.30 went to collect the uniform from Makiyo to go work...but who knows by 1.50 Makiyo called me and said that pay will be delay by 1 more day =P so pissed off lo but lucky manage to meet a friend halfway and we had macdonalds....talk so many things abt our secondary life and IT stuffs though im such a noob =P...anyway talk till abt 2.30 then we left macdonalds cuz he got lesson at 3....at that point of time, i was so shag that i decided to go home and rest and call it a day....so i went home and started to shag again =D but till ard 3.15....Francis called and said that how come nobody at booth? sianz bo bian lo lan lan have to go down work....so i came up with a lousy excuses telling him got project to rush will be down ard 4plu 5...then slack at home till abt 4.15 then leave house....reach work place ard 5.30 then study up the place cuz it was so messy...then stay in booth till ard 8.20 then left....lucky i nv leave at 7plus cuz got customer came back to exchange item...if i ciaoz liao think i sure tio blackmark by carrefour de sia...then suay suay abt to leave booth ard 8.10, a customer come a want to purchase a gurgle...then purchase liao stand stand awhile make sure nobody is ard then i left the booth....didnt went home straight away but went to 700+ basketball court to check if the Pi Gu Guy is over there so i can use my Pi Gu vs his Pi Gu XD i might lose lo who knows...bring so much hope go there but in the end disappointed myself...so nv climb to high yeah.....the higher u climb the harder u falled =P anyway just went down to see them play bball lo....then after that went to cheers to sit down la liang for awhile discussing that next week monday Makiyo bday we go ice skating....hmmm rmb silli told me that wanna go ice skating but due to the holiday we both were busy that we missed the chance =) but its all right ba...there is still other times de...but i plan to organise a bbq at leonard house for him leh...but since its his bday...let it have it his way ba =P....thats abt all today ba...quite a boring life but i cant help it...cuz life is boring...it depends on HOW YOU LIVE IT? to make it wonderful =P nitez....
hmmm...today morning woke up by some stupid pker in game...nvm ba....over la jiu over lo dun care so much le...then after wake up liao when to 813 play bball....beh pai leh first 7 3points all score then later part shoot another 3 all miss -_-" make my percentage drop like hell 7/10 balls....tmd shd know dun shoot liao...but then 3point shoot but all the balls under the hoop all miss sia....like all tiao come out...shag...only manage to get rebounds and shoot 3points....anyway after that went home to bath then go to 844 to eat when i suppose to go for work de, but then no T-shirt for carrefour! then skip work =D happy lo...went home suppose to pack my room de pack until slp until 7.30....after that woke up le faster go pack my room till 10pm, only pack halfway lo, cuz i slack slack here and there then after then went to eat mac with yj they all. Eat 1 Mac Spicy meal upsized, with an additional Mac Chicken...was so fulled =D lol....but i can still eat...then back home continue to pack my room which was done halfway...after when its done, then talk to my silli gal till 12plus...then go bath le...come here to blog lo....hmmm things have change for the better le lo...knowing my silli gal is changing...i must have some change in myself ba...my studies, bball, attitude towards things and my goals...many things to change just hoping i wont disappoint myself... =) nitez!

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