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Haiz....its been so long

Wednesday, March 16, 2005, 12:36 AM

Haiz....my blog. its been so long since i last wrote on u. sorry hope u can forgive me for that. if only u r alive, a real person be it a diff or same sex, u will always be my best pal. a pal that will nv leave me. a true pal. haiz....its been 3months plus, still i cant forget her. why? this question has been passing through my mind countless. on monday, i been to plaza sing, a place which i have lots of memories abt her. that when i notice that i still cant get over her but will she know it? will she care? have i tried to forget her? WHY?!!! why?? :'( im really tired of putting a strong front infront of everybody already. even my broz cant c that im upset or wad. sometimes going out i still feel sad but i put up a front which everybody will not notice am i happy or not? today was flag day, i went to suntec. the place itself too brought me many many memories. places like sky garden, the cinema, the puzzle shop, cold storage, many many memories. memories of that she telling me that suntec is a curse place for us as we tend not to get close, a curse place that we do not talk to each other. why!!! why all this have to happen? wad can i do to get her back? pls! tell me pls. im willing to scarifice anything for u, just to get u back by my side. let me treasure u, love u and care for u like the past. till this point of time, i have given up my god sis, hoping that god will exchange u for her, given up my prefects, give up my life except feelings for u, why cant u still feel it? do i really have to live without u or die for u? why? i just dun understand life. y arent i given a second chance to treasure u again? pls tell me wad to do? and blog thx for lending ya body to write somethings despite me being such a sadist all the time. truely, im sorry :(