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Worth Of Celebration?

Wednesday, January 26, 2005, 11:53 PM

Is today worth of celebration? for ChaiChee to win the first ever badminton match in my book of history? Yes indeed we won 5 - 0 by trashing Changkat Changi but...if only she was here to celebrate this joyous occasion. haiz...today just found out another truth. i found out that A(somebody) have already fallen for B(somebody). i thought its was all right until i ask myself, n i suddenly have a feeling over this B. its a very strange feeling, i thought it was love but its impossible between me n her. its just impossible between me n her so i decided to let in to A. Maybe i shd not damp the mood of this blog cuz it shd be a happy one but cant be help, its only for my feelings n nobody can change the way i write my blog. the world seems to be changing, changing that i feel like i have a distance with this world. distance that can nv be recovered. maybe its my stupid feelings again ba but somehow its gave me a feeling that i do not understand my bros anymore. they dun share anything with me anymore. ppl like syl, kenny, fabian n wen hao. did i do something wrong or unfaithful to them? did i ever embarrassed them? or was it that they already forget my chun zai? whatever it is now, i really feel like a zombie. a person who does not have any feeling anymore, a person who might not even be notice by ppl. haiz...if only i could, if only i could leave this world without having giving a thought to my parents cuz nth seems much more important to me in this world than my family now. if only i could leave...