Suddenly dream of you n a wish that will nv come true
Thursday, January 13, 2005, 8:35 PM
Haiz...time really flies. i wanna chat with you on the phone but i cant let u know where am i...im feeling very sad really...anyway, if i have the chance, i hope i have the chance to ask you to come back to my side. if only i could, i would turn back time n stop doing all those silly things that i have done...this morning is just dream abt you. i dream that u r going oversea with me to futher my studies n when u n i are doing our work, i stare at you n hold up your hand, asking you to give me another chance n i got stun, waking up, finding myself it was a dream. a dream zhong shi a dream, it can never be replace by a real story. suddenly i saw u gave me a comment, i did not know u would read my blog...i was stun again n in my heart i wanted to give myself a chance to ask u back again but i have told myself that if i have told u im migrating, then wad the point of asking u back. Knowing that u r happy now, im also glad for you, i have nth much to ask for but i only wish to celebrate my bday with you this year but think this will nv come true one de la...stupid me n my stupid wish. if only i can c your happy face again, cuz the day i last saw u is when u gave me a very angry n disappointing face. it make me feel very guilty. its like i have cause your whole bday to become like this but i just wanna let u know that i dun mean to do that. i just wanna give u a surprise n wanna ask u to come back to my side. thinking that everything was prefect except for a chance to ask, but its was ruined becuz desiree did not call u to meet her. i dun blame her but blame myself for coming up with this stupid surprise. anyway, thx to eunice for lightening my sadness for me but one thing for sure, i still cant get over you but i know life have to move on. so here i am, promising myself that i will nv bother you again by keeping myself away, hide my tears n change to another person with diff character. even my god sis say i have change before i go, its funny but i find it true i have change, i have seems to change to somebody who give up things very easily without even fighting for it, im tired, dun think i wanna be a hero anymore. hope that one day, i could let my tears out n the only day will be when i c you =') but its only a wish which will nv come true
