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@ 5@d y3@r & d@y

Friday, January 28, 2005, 11:14 PM

Hmmm...today i have lost my badminton match. its was such a wasted match. the score was 15-4 & 15-13. it was such a close gap. why isnt luck on my side this year? this start to happen almost everyday which is not good. why am i so unlucky? did i do something in my previous life that cuz me to suffer this way in this life or is it that i have to force myself till i have no path to go n....all this does not matter anymore, cuz i know it cant solve anything. im so angry with myself for not winning the match, i was having the leading score in the second match n why? WHY DID I LOSE?! its unfair to my live. why cant i get a second chance to fight with them again? why? its so unfair that becuz too me, life already sucks to the core. everything seems so colourless too me, nth seems to be able to colour the inner world of me. iris just ask me, does like still sucks? it do cuz life is so unfair to me. y its just cant be just a little bit more fair to me? i just want something to make myself forget everythings but things always turn out other ways. since the beginning of the year, bad luck have been following me till today, being accuse by officers for stealing n wanted to send me to jail? if only that time i have ask him to call, maybe i wil be inside sitting down passing my few months or year life in a boy's home without having to meet this world which have lose its meaningful colour to me. haiz...if only this world could be abit more fair to me.